16 posts tagged “blahs”
I'm sorry to have dropped off the planet for a large portion of 2008. It was an insane year. Looking back, from the safety of the passage of time, it wasn't so bad, but at the time, all I could see was the suck touching everything. A lot happened. A lot that I couldn't control. But it's passed, as times like that tend to do, and I'm hoping I can get back to things I enjoy, including blogging.
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First finished book of 2009 - let's see if I can actually keep accurate count!
It's the fourth book in the Morganville Vampires series and I simply adored this book. I really enjoyed the first three, but I think, in this book, we really get to the heart of the drama going on around our protagonist. It's also at a point in the series where we really know the characters and can enjoy them and their relationships once again
I like Rachel Caine's take on the vampire lore. I like her style of writing. And mostly, I love her characters.
That said, cliffhanger ending made me so glad that the next book came out this week.
My plans for the day were hijacked by an eight year old. It's not her fault. It's my mother, who agrees to babysit and then this morning goes, "Oh, I forgot that I have lunch plans." So the little bit and I went to McDonalds for lunch and then we saw Alvin and the Chipmunks. Not nearly as horrible as I expected. Enjoyable even while I was there, though nothing I want to see again. And now the kid is playing with her WebKins account on my desktop while I use my laptop. I really don't mind spending time with her as she is the cutest, most awesome eight-year-old in the world, but I just get annoyed that my mother agrees to take her and then it ends up on me.
Oh well. what can you do?
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So now I'm considering taking some of my time from working this weekend and leave work a day early so I can go see Atonement, like I originally planned for myself. Sometimes I like to go to the movies alone and escape into a different world for a few hours and I was really looking forward to that today.
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I'm looking at my mess of a room and I know it has to be cleaned, but I just don't know where to start. So I try to ignore it and it gets worse. And I'm pretty sure this feeling applies to a whole lot going on in my life at the moment. winter is so not my good time of the year.
Oh Tuesdays, you are never my favorite day of the week. You drag and drag and there's nothing special about you at all. At least before, it used to be Buffy night and I had something to look forward to, but Buffy is long gone and you remain a horrible blight on my week.
My writing has become stagnate and redundant. I need to find some good exercises to get me writing again and hopefully I'll stop feeling like I'm just repeating the same exact scene with new characters. There's a world in my mind to explore, I just can't seem to get a hold of it. Anyone have any good ways to overcome that stale feeling to writing? A part of me hopes it's simply the stress of my life inundating my writing because at least that will (hopefully) stop soon enough. But the other part of me hates that anything can affect my writing like this. It's terrible. Everything I write is terrible.
Why is this week going so horribly slow? I woke up today and was saddened to find out that it was only Thursday. How is this possible? Who hit the slow-mo button on time?
Have you ever felt like you have so much to do and no idea where to start or how to even make a dent in it all? I've got a list and it's so long and scary looking. I keep telling myself to take it one piece at a time, but it's a bit disconcerting to look at it and see task multiplying like Gremlins.. One of my goals for this year is to get organized. I'm hoping that will make everything else much easier.
Contrary to my lack of posting, I am alive. November I was focused on my writing rather than my blogging, so this fell to the wayside a bit. I'm hoping to get back on track, but it's the holidays and life likes to run me over every now and then.
Or I like to fall and hurt myself. I really need to live in a bubble.
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In the meantime, a video that always makes me laugh...
I'm incredibly tired this morning, barely able to keep my eyes open. I've tried everything except injecting caffeine directly into my veins to no avail. And the saddest thing about it? I got seven hours sleep, which for most people is more than enough. But not for me. Unless I get a little over eight hours, it's like my body just shuts down. And I've always been like this. According to my mother, she used to have to tap her belly from time to time when she was pregnant to make sure I was still alive in there and she would receive a fierce kick in return. And when I was a baby, I was a little night owl, who would stay up very late and then sleep for nine hours straight.
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Out of Sync by Lance Bass of Nsync (get the clever title?) came out on Tuesday. I must go purchase this book and devour it. I admit it. Not only do I love when celebrities go all crazy a la Tom Cruise and his couch jumping, but I love to read memoirs for little gossip and such. I'm what's wrong with America, but I don't care because Lance Bass wrote a book and I used to be obsessed with Nsync.
What is it about Tuesdays that makes them drag for no good reason? I have yet to figure this out. I mean, as much as Mondays can be a pain, they tend to move somewhat fast for the most part, but Tuesday? It lasts *forever*.
It doesn't help that I'm in one of those apathetic moods where I just have no interest in anything whatsoever. There are plenty of things I could (should) be doing, but it sounds like too much work, too much effort so I just sit here. I really need to work on that.
On the bright side, I see the best friend tonight for dinner. On the down side, beforehand, I have to move old furniture out to the curb for big trash pick-up day.
My life is so mundane it bores mundane things.
I've been terrible about commenting lately. I'm reading everyone, but I can either think of nothing to say or just run out of time online. It's one of my busier times at work with the fiscal year ending and I had a battle with bronchitis. And of course these things can't be spread out. That would be too much to ask for.
The other problem is I'm just feeling qutie apathetic lately about all things, especially online, and find myself thinking, "Sefl, why don't you go to Vox or Livejournal?" only to decide to sleep instead.
I feel like I should do a real update here, but my life is pretty damn boring at the moment. My day consists of: get up, curse horny plants for allergy problems, go to the gym (where I curse trainers and whoever invented pull-ups), work all day, come home with many plans only to collapse on sofa, sleep.
I can't imagine why no one is banging down my door to right a tell-all novel about said life.
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While I don't discuss it a whole lot here, I feel it should be said every once-and-awhile that I'm a liberal, blue state Jersey girl. I'm Pro-Choice. I'm Anti-Bush. And I am one of those constituents who is constantly writing real letters to her congressmen and senators. I always try to be respectful of opposing opinions as long as people are respectful of me, but it's unlikely you'll change my mind on any topic. I'm stubborn like that.
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Oh, and I'm also overly attached to certain television shows. Buffy has been off the air for a few years now and it is still my all-time favorite show that I love to talk about and rewatch.
Heroes has become one of those shows over the course of this year. Man, it's just brilliant writing and acting. I love that while there are all these questions, we get answers for them...and then there are new questions. Lost could take a lesson from that. But what does it say about me that 1) one of my favorite characters on the show is the serial killer and 2) the people who have the most chemistry all play relatives?
The surefire sign that I'm old - I found myself thinking, "how is it May already" on my drive to work today. These are not thoughts that I pondered when I was in my teens or younger. Back then it was more like, "When will it be summer? When will I be done with high school?"
It's funny how time works like that. It seems to move slower when we least appreciate it.
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I pretty much consider April to be a failure of a month for me. Between battling illness and ennui, I accomplished little to nothing on any of my goals, including writing.
In fact, in April, I only managed to write one short story and it wasn't even that great. I keep telling myself that I need to get back on a daily writing schedule, but I haven't been able to motivate myself.
To writers on my friends list - how do you deal with motivating yourself to write?
Here's to hoping May is a much better and much more productive month for me on all fronts.
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Heroes last night made my brain explode. So good. I know I love too much television, but seriously, this show is just...can I marry a television show?
